Xx, screamyname.

i think my private blog needs me most right now . i'll be back after im okay:) goodbye .

Today school was a bliss al beit 7933 did not come to school. FNN was good as usual. It is fun. I am considering FNN for next year. However, FNN comes together with Amaths. DO YOU WANT ME TO DIE? -.- I PREFER POA OKAY. However, sadly, POA is together with Art. WHY MUST IT BE ART? If I could change the teachers' mind, I would. I want POA + FNN. It sounds like a good combination alright. Anyway, after FNN was English. We read Reader's Digest for 20 minutes and watched a local movie. I watched the movie once in Sunil's house. The ending is rather sad. I'd cry again if I were to watch the ending again.

One should always treasure one's family no matter how bad they may be. Once they are gone, you will regret not making an effort to know them better. You will regret not spending much time with them. Speaking about that, my grandmother keep getting admitted at hospital. It has been twice. I regret not spending much time with her but I just can not seem to. I am mad at one of my aunt who keeps making ruthless decisions. I hate her. I mean, I do not hate her but I hate the way she treats my grandmother. It's not nice okay. I MEAN LIKE HELLO, WAKE THE FUCK UP, SHE IS YOUR MOTHER, GOD DAMN IT. She gave birth to you, she nurtured and raised you. Now this is how you treat her? Well done. -.- I do not mean to be insolent but some people just deserve it okay. Anyway, I am really afraid if my grandmother were to kick the bucket. CHOI! ): Okay Im thinking too much.

Anyhoo, after english was recess. Whichafter is maths. It's Ms Kho's last day teaching us. The class rejoiced. How I wish some would just appreciate her for making the effort to teach us and keep believing we could excel. I really owe it to her. She tolerated the class despite mean remarks were passed, the class was simply like ignorant. The attention she gave us and everything, we, the class, do not deserve it. I hope she finds a better school. :) After that was Malay! I used to dread malay till now. Mdm Sulastri was being nice to us. She said she had to and it was only for a day. After the holidays, we would get it from her. But who cares, I do not care. I mean it's their duty to make sure we work hard. She told me and afew others about her background. As in her family. I pity her. I swear I totally pity her. My heart just sank when she told me stuffs. I swear. If I could help in any possible way, I would. And I guess the only way I could help is to lower the stress we all give her. In school, she is stressed. At home, she is stressed too. WHEN THE FUCK CAN SHE EVER LEAVE IN PEACE? I hope the class cooperates ):

After that was FT, I got back my report book :/ I got three A1's ( Maths, Science and FNN ). One A2 ( English ). One B3 ( Art ) and one B4 ( History.) I totally flunked my malay.

Dear Mdm Sulastri,

I am sorry to hear about whatever that is happening to you. I really am sorry for being mischievous in class. I really apologise for not handing in homework on time. I am sorry the class can be an irritant at times. I dont know who gossiped about you but I really think you are a nice teacher and you deserve a better life than what you are living right now. If I could help, I would help sincerely to make it all up. After this Sept holidays, I promise to work harder and pass my malay. I promise you I will make an effort in trying to understand whatever that is being taught in class. I will ask when in doubts. If that makes your life easier, then I certainly would. However, I do not know how could the class improve. If only they feel the same way I do, things will be better. Al beit we are human beings, we see/feel differently. I am sorry for everything I have done. And thank you very much for being very patient with me.

With love,

ME. :)

I know she may not see this but well, I dont knowwww... I am sad. Very sad. I think I could have done better for my maths. I got 76. I could have done better but it is okay, I still have one more term to prove to everyone. I will work very hard with the guidance of my teachers and support of my family and friends. Also, if I want my vertical labret piercing, I MUST MUST MUST MUST EXCEL. There is maths remedial tomorrow from 8-12. I MUST SLEEP EARLY TONIGHT. I MUST PAY ATTENTION TOMORROW. I MUST I MUSTTTTT. :)

Your malevolent inclination to destroy the happiness of others. You may do that to others but I am not allowing you to break me down. I do not care if I have to walk around this world alone. I will stand up. For myself. For my rights. I have to start standing up for my rights. I know I have always sounded so strong. People who actually knew me well knew that Im weak in the inside. Thus they took an advantage of that. But now, Im gonna prove you wrong, you ruthless people! :D

I have been rather moodless and down nowadays. I do not know why. See all my posts? It's so emo :/ I should start posting happily , just like I used to. I miss posting happy stuffs. Reminding myself how everyone is so mean isn't helping me. Ahhh, I cannot be bothered anymore la. So anyhooos, I went to YOG Closing with Saraah E :) It was certainly one memorable event. I kind of miss it. Especially the fireworks, it was mind-blowing, ma maan. Mind-blowing. My malay relief teacher has gone already ): She was so nice ): Now I do not know how am I going to cope in malay class ): It's not even a malay class, to begin with. It's like a cemetry. So boring ): Trust me, I could sleep everytime Im in malay class ): But oh well, life goes on. Today is teacher's day. I gave school a skip. There is nothing in school and i do not want to run 4.3km. Like seriously. Supposedly, I'm meeting Germaine later to go back to primary school. After that, I'd be going to cwp to watch Step Up 3d with Yohinee! Yayyy, I can't wait. It's like finally! Hopefully, it is not a let down. Okay, you see, Im starting to crap again. I should go do Maths now. Byeeee :)

P.s : Do not assume because it takes two hands to clap. You want to talk to me? You talk to me. You don't bitch about me. :) Besides, I am not the only one hating you. Everyone wants you dead anyway. Irritating bitch with a pea-sized brains :)